Thursday, October 18, 2012
These days are awash in their own slightly off-kilter rhythm. A week of cold and rain followed by a brilliantly sunny and warm day sends my kids scattering from their completed lessons, out into the yard to grasp these last few golden moments of Fall. I find myself a bit scattered, forgetting a ballet lesson, staring blankly at a meal planning page, letting packages intended for the post office accumulate dust before they are finally sent on their way.
I've entered the second trimester so once again I can stay up late, talking to my husband, eating snacks and knitting with quiet fury. My priorities seem to spasm when I feed my family popcorn for dinner and fret about Halloween costumes more than the plumbing mishap in the downstairs bathroom. I drink spiced cider in the afternoon and read a novel in less than 24 hours.
We start the slow and easy transition of moving Peter into the boys' room, easing just a bit at a time while still babying him as much as possible. The girls pull out winter clothes and dress for a blizzard on the first cold day and leave a mess of mittens, scarves and hats all over the kitchen floor a mere 5 minutes after heading out the door. Over my head, I hear Jonah jumping on my bed.
I second-guess our homeschool decisions and stay up late, figuring out a new plan. I decide we are quitting the virtual school, and then change my mind. Back and forth and back and forth. Ben finishes his first ever big book and we celebrate by buying him the next one. I marvel that I (I!) taught that kid to read, over hours spent on the living room couch coaxing, encouraging, fretting. I stick it in that trove in my heart that holds the treasures of parenting triumphs.
Yes, these days have been scattered. Messy. Disorganized. Spun right out. With grace, I can see that they are ours, moments marked in time when Mama was a bit insane with the hormones and Fall just seemed to explode all over us. Moments in this family life where we are doing just what we need to for today, even if it seems a bit crazy. Moments that we'll never get back, moments that we'll never forget.
Just these crazy days of ours.
How are you all doing?
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