Monday, September 29, 2014

I Could Never...#MindfulMotheringMondays


My faith is not a fire
As much as it's a glow
A little burning ember
In my weary soul
 
~Audrey Assad~



 

 

 A while back a friend interviewed me on her website and asked specifically about how my faith informs my parenting. I'll admit the question surprised me a bit. I figured my faith as a Mom was just about the same as the faith of any spiritual Christian Mom. But the more I think about it now, the more I struggle and strain against how faith looks and feels and is in my life - the more I realize it's like anything - as unique as the person it belongs to.

Not all Moms are the same and we celebrate the differences we have. The way we use our own gifts to bless our families and raise our children, the artistry of building a life together and coloring it with our distinctive personalities and strengths.

For me, faith is the only way I make it through. It's me calling, begging, whimpering - be close today? Have my back? Fill in the gaps, cover my weaknesses and bless it? Faith is me starting every day and closing each night entreating Him to be right there beside me. Faith is me knowing that each and every success and failure, every mountain and every valley, every shining morning and storm riddled night - He's all good and all on my side. Even when I'm not.

At a park not too long ago, a woman asked me as our children played together - are all those kids yours? When I nodded a friendly yes and told her names and ages and added my signature - "it's a lot of work but I love it," she said "I could never..." And I know what she meant because me, too I could never...be enough. I could never do right by them all. I could never get it right all the time, keep my heart patient and my eyes on things above. I could never hold my tongue and tamp down my temper. I could never be the mother 6 wildly unique and precious people need. And yet...I have faith.

We all have our "I could never"s. I've got a stack of my own, but even as I leaf through them in my mind, I know that, if that was required of me? I could. Not because I'm confident in my crisis management abilities - on the contrary, dealing with my own immaturity is one of the biggest chores in my life. No, it's because of something more. A promise I memorized as a child and still hold close today.

So when I see that positive pregnancy test after a hard summer of job loss and gain, I take a day to doubt. To lose my faith. To sit in the center of my bed in tears and saying "I could never..."

And I wake up the next morning to the life He promised to meet me in, and I whisper "You still there? Good. You're gonna have to do the heavy lifting again. Let's do this."


"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Phillipians 4:13
 
 

My faith makes my parenting possible because with Him anything is. I grasp courage in my parenting when I let go of control and let Him lead me.

I hold onto that tightly, trusting that God can use it all to sanctify me, drawing me closer each day. These kids are God's unique way of refining me every day. Slowly sloughing off the rough edges and making me more and more into who He's planning for me to be. I believe Him. I make it through each and every day clinging to His word because it's all I have to carry me through.





{It's Mindful Mothering Mondays, a day to take a deep breath and write out your mothering journey, whatever form it takes. A day to link up for encouragement from others who are in this same phase of life. A day of writing out the trials and triumphs and what you're learning right where you are, right now.

You might post recent struggles or thoughts. Maybe just a picture or a quote. Or maybe you'll just come here and read the links that others post. Whatever form your participation takes, this is a day for you.
We are all in this, together. Together, we can encourage and build one another up, be honest with our shortcomings and strengthened by community to keep fighting the good fight.

I chose Mondays because what Mama doesn't need a little encouragement on a Monday?

I hope you'll meet with me! Here's what to do ~

Link up your post below in the comments. Remember to put the link to the exact post you want to link, and not just your blog url. Include in your post a link back here so others who want to join in can find us! And visit some other Mamas who have linked up.

Post the community graphic within your post, so people who are reading your Mindful Mothering post can come back here and find the rest of us! You can use the hashtag #MindfulMotheringMondays on Twitter and Instagram to connect further.

Invite the writers of your favorite blogs to join in!

Share this meme with others on facebook and twitter. This community is for all moms, and the more that participate, the more we will be able to enjoy!!}


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12 comments:

  1. Oh Lydia.. Congratulations! You are a beautiful mother!

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  2. Thank you for sharing! This really spoke to me today!! Here's my link :) http://www.realmomclub.com/2014/09/mindfulmotheringmondays.html

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  3. Thanks for sharing your heart! I've been thinking about that a lot lately!! Here's my MMM post: http://www.realmomclub.com/2014/09/mindfulmotheringmondays.html

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  4. You're so right Lydia, congratulations, what a blessing!

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  5. Congratulations! You are a blessing to your family and all us readers!

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  6. That is wonderful news Lydia! Take God at His Word when He promises your children are one of your greatest blessings in life! They are worth every inconvenience & struggle! Love & prayers, in Jesus, Cynthia

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  7. Fabulous news! Congratulations!

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  8. Congrats to you guys!!! We are on opposite "baby years". We just had our fifth 4 weeks ago :) such a wonderful blessing for your family!

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  9. Congratulations Lydia!!! God is good and he always provides. Grace, strength, finances, etc...Just when we think we can't do it anymore we are always reassured by HIM that he will never leave us! I'm so happy for you! I too am possibly pregnant with my 7th!

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  10. Thank you Jill! You are so right. I am leaning quite a bit now on the knowledge that He is always enough. Congrats to you too!

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  11. Thank you Sarah! And congratulations on your newest blessing.

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